I think I have a mild form of autism, noting thats been diagnosed however I was "held back" from first grade because I was "socially unready" and put into readiness (for those for you who don’t know a post kindergarden/pre first grade class) I literally had no friends from 2nd – 8th grade. In high school in the beginning of my junior year they put me in special ed classes once a day in the "resource room" By this time I had failed a number of classes freshman social studies twice, freshman science twice and sophomore science once 2 english classes (the list goes on). I barely graduated with 21 credits. the average student (taking 7 classes a semester) has the chance for 28 credits so I failed 12+ classes in my high school year and they refused to have me tested to see if I could get an IEP the entire time.
I also have mild OCD mild Bipolar and ADD.
But anyways I do think that there is something wrong with me, what are your thoughts.
Uhm what dos ADD have to do with smiling? and I don’t go to school so how can i go to a school person?
my thought are: if u want a professional opinion u go to a professional. also i had been working with autistic children and got some courses plus to my master degree in philosophy. so anyway, if a person is autistic a person stays in his/her own world and prefers his/her company. also autism doesn’t affect intelectual abilities. so u being autistic can’t be an excuse for failing in studies. to me u don’t sound autistic at all. also those people never smile. they don’t knwo how. and they do not have any emotional feelings whatsoever. u having add says the opposite. but i am educated only to teach them, not to diagnose them. so u want a diagnose – go to school shrink.
Whats wrong with me??? I am so frustrated with myself ! I am doing poorly in school. I have NO self confidence in my self and my anxiety is unbearable ! Lately Ive been unable to concentrate and its interfering with my studying and exam taking !!! i seriously feel so ANGERY at my self that i want to harm my self, i want to punish my self!! For some reason i am doing the worst academically this year in high school then any of the other years! i don’t think its because the curriculum is difficult i just think maybe there something wrong with me! Ive been trying different alternatives to try to concentrate but hasn’t worked!! Ive drank coffee, it doesn’t really help, Ive tried sleeping earlier and ive tried studying and honestly when i study it takes me FOREVER to memorize or learn a few things. I am very stressed and its only getting worse. Please is there any one out there that has gone through this??? and please give advise and suggestions. thank you .
P.s. I don’t know if this matters but When I was younger i always struggled in math and till this day i still do and i learned how to read when i was 8 and that’s only after my mother payed thousands of dollars for a tutor !!! in elementary school and up in till the Sixth grade i did horrible in school my grades were in 40s 50s and 60s ( sometimes less!) Then all of a suddenly i was doing well ( I took resource form elementary till middle school) now its like dajavu again!!! Could there be a good explanation as to why i did bad all through elementary school and 6th grade, and now Again! I am seriously getting failing grades in some of my classes .
Is it like an on and off condition of academic failure?
First of all, start loving your self. never ever think of hurting yourself ….
Everything is there in your mind set..
if you think you loose, you loose.
If you think you win , you win….
just study your subjects with interest, don’t worry about grades when you start to study. Believe me when you do some thing with interest the results are quite amazing. Gradually you will find your grades increasing and you will be the best in your class. All the best….
